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Post by Jack Specific on Jul 3, 2021 13:20:47 GMT -5
Hey guys, I usually do not post anything like this, so much of my personal life I keep just that, and I really am not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me or anything like that. However in this case I feel like I need to just let it out. So here it goes... Yesterday afternoon while I was home sitting on my computer I heard a noise. It sounded like my neighbor was drilling in their house yet again, they are always fixing up their house it seems. I got up to investigate and it was my cat. She passed right then and there on my landing seemingly on her was down to greet me as she constantly does when she's not actually staying down the basement with me. She was only 9 years old, almost 10. Usually she will stay down here with me but sometimes it is very cold and she'll go upstairs to sleep where it is warmer, but only for a bit because when she wakes up she'll check on me. She was very attached to me, stayed by my side constantly. Slept with me, kneaded me constantly, always laid on top of me, followed me everywhere. I was attached to her as well. We just bonded almost instantly. A little back story of how we got her. Around 7 or 8 years ago when my last Greyhound passed we had our one small dog left and felt bad that she'll be lonely. We did not want another dog at that point so we decided on a cat to adopt from a shelter. We looked for quite some time, we didn't really feel that connection but then we met Kiwi. For some reason I instantly fell in love. I knew she was the one. My wife felt the same way. She was the one. We got her home, she fit right in, she tolerated our dog at the time but really wasn't a big fan, lol. She bonded to me though as I mentioned. She loved my wife no doubt, but with Kiwi and I we just had that special connection. Kiwi was friendly to everyone. She was kind, and had such a beautiful soul. She would not hurt anything, not a mouse or even a fly. She was so great around the house too. Never knocking things over or climbing on counters. When we got her we hit the jackpot of all cats. We were so lucky and fortunate. I have had many pets pass, all have hurt greatly. But with Kiwi it is just something more. She was my best friend, and not "like" a baby to me, not "like" a daughter to me, she WAS my daughter and baby, in fact she will always be. She was so special to both me and my wife, a part of our family. We lost a loved one. We loved her dearly. Words cannot even express how much she meant to us. She was my guardian angel as well got me through some really tough times. I am having a very hard time with all of this. I am hurting really bad, my wife is too. I keep hearing that sound and seeing her lying their lifeless. It keeps playing over and over in my head. I feel like I could have done something else or I should have checked on her prior or something. I keep hearing her around me, I keep expecting here to be there next to me. To our baby, RIP Kiwi, Daddy and Mommy love you so much and you will be missed dearly. Thanks for reading and letting me vent my hurt. Please don't feel sorry for me or anything like that. I am not looking for that even though I know you guys would mean well. If you can just wish my baby some peace what ever heaven she is in. Below are some pics. The first pic is the last pic I took of her. Wasn't she beautiful!?: Attachment Deleted Attachment Deleted
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Post by mrassbillygunn on Jul 3, 2021 13:45:47 GMT -5
Lovely cat. There's few things worse than losing a much loved pet. My first dog was only 10 when she died and I was devastated because I was playing with her just earlier that day in the park. I know how you are feeling, it gets better with time but just know that you gave her a loving home and you did all you could, these things have a nasty way of creeping up on us when we least expect it. They all have their own personalities that makes you miss them so much so I know how you are feeling right now. R.I.P Kiwi.
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Post by Grumpyoldman on Jul 3, 2021 14:02:48 GMT -5
Kiwi looks exactly like my cat Joker who passed earlier this year. He was 14. Having a pet who bonds with you is amazing. It just isn't fair that they don't live as long as humans do. And when they do go unexpectedly, it hurts twice as much. I bet you gave her the best life possible, and I'm sure she knows & appreciated that. I wish you peace & solace in this difficult time.
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Post by bWo on Jul 3, 2021 14:03:14 GMT -5
She could have not made it out of that shelter at all, or even worse been adopted by a piece of sh*t. She landed in your lap though and you gave her the best life she could have had. That's ALWAYS a best case scenario for pets/animal. She was looking at a very difficult future, and you saved her from it. Try to focus on how special you made her feel. She knew it. She absolutely did. Think about that above all else.
RIP Kiwi
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Post by Valbroski on Jul 3, 2021 14:16:55 GMT -5
I'm sorry to hear that. I actually just lost a cat of 11 years last year. It's horrible but I'm sure you gave her a great life.
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Post by Jack Specific on Jul 3, 2021 21:48:38 GMT -5
Thank you for the kind words, I really appreciate it. For those of you who lost loved ones and/or pets, my condolences as well. We were cleaning up some of her toys and things getting things ready to donate to the rescue and give some stuff to my daughter who has two cats. There was so much stuff. She certainly was spoiled and I am so proud of that. I cannot bring myself to gather up the toys that she brought down here though. This is so difficult. My baby girl (with the help of her Mommy) got me a mug for father's day with a cartoon type picture of us saying "Best Friends for Life". I also have some nick-knacks of her on my desk that I had gotten from the hallmark store a while back. When her ashes come next week I have a little shelf table I made that I will put all of that on as a memorial of her. Her collar and tag stay with me everywhere I go in the house though. She needs to be by my side all of the time like she normally would. I will take a picture and post it when it's done. Today was rough but tomorrow my wife goes to work and I am all alone. I don't know how that will go but it won't be good. Enjoy the Holiday tomorrow and thanks for caring and reading. JS
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Post by J'Dinkalage Morgoone on Jul 3, 2021 22:23:34 GMT -5
ah man im sorry to hear that, the death of a pet is always hard
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Post by The Brain on Jul 3, 2021 22:28:00 GMT -5
Losing a pet is extremely difficult. I've had 3 dogs in my life, one I had to put down and the other passed in my kitchen. The dog I have now is soon to be 18 and is still hanging in there but you can tell age is catching up.
Like others have said, sounds like you gave her a fantastic life.All the best to you and your family during this tough time.
RIP Kiwi
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Post by ET had AIDS on Jul 3, 2021 22:30:51 GMT -5
Oh man. That's super rough, Jay. I am so sorry about all of this. That just sounds horrible and very similar to a situation with my favorite cat I ever have had, Jello, who died last April 24th. He was 16...the day he died, he started throwing up, which wasn't uncommon as he'd overeat sometimes and just upchuck, or get a hairball, etc. He had been retreating under the couch. Some reason, I knew something was wrong. Eventually he made his way to me and got up next to me and let out this yowl. It was horrible... I knew he was having problems. I went in the other room to discuss it with my parents and then heard an even louder yowl. It was time to get into the uber, height of the pandemic, and take him to the vet ASAP. So we went on our way to do that. Got him to a local animal hospital/vet but they only had 20 minutes open til closing time. They took him in while we waited curbside. Came out 10 minutes later and bluntly told us we had to get him to the hospital that was still open or he was "gonna die".... not very pleased with that place to this day if they could have saved him had they been open an extra 30 minutes. But I digress. We somehow end up with the same uber driver, and she's extremely sweet. Tell her to gun it to the hospital... about 3 minutes later he was gone. Watched the life leave his body, slowly and peacefully, and his eyes glossed over. He was the best cat I've ever had, and frankly, one of the best friends I have ever had in my entire life. He would have been 17 this year... I had him for half of my living years when he passed away (I turn 32 tomorrow). Sorry to butt in with my story, but I've held it in for a long time. The uber driver was sweet enough to let me take him out of his cage and hold him until he got stiff. It was one of the hardest experiences of my entire life. I cried for 2 days straight and couldn't sleep in my bed--the bed that he slept in with me. My mom shared a photo she took just days before this happened, with me sleeping on my back and him laying on my chest. It brings me peace to see it now... Once I finally felt better, and gave it a week, I went looking for a new kitty. I adopted a rescue cat named Pinky. She's a tabby, 3/4th of tabbies being male I find this cool. She also lost a chunk of her tail somehow before being rescued, but it healed and she has a cute bobtail. She has come SO far since we brought her in--heard pounding, skittish, and not wanting to leave her cage. My other kitty I adopted from a breeder. Milo. He's attached to me and will follow my lead more or less. I liken him to my cat that passed, Jello, because they're both really clingy and loving males. Milo may be even more clingy than Jello was (he had an independent wise cat side to him) and he's definitely a bit more goofy. imgur.com/gallery/WtyijD3There's a bunch of pix of them. I'm so sorry for you loss, Jay. The suddenness of it is just so similar to what I went through. I hope you can get another kitty cat soon... once the wounds heal up. Cats are amazing therapy animals.
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Post by theman on Jul 3, 2021 22:52:12 GMT -5
This thread breaks my heart. I lost my best friend "Wild Thing" four years ago. Cried for a week straight and still tear up time to time thinking about the good times we had. We got a new kitty named "tigger" and it's best name ever because he loves to bounce lol.
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Post by ET had AIDS on Jul 3, 2021 23:08:17 GMT -5
She is also a beautiful cat. I kept a piece of my cat's fur. We weren't able to have him cremated, but in a baggie, I have "Jello 2020 4/24" and some fur in a ziplock before we had to bury him.
It's so hard.
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Post by Kill Em' All on Jul 3, 2021 23:48:01 GMT -5
Oh man I am so sorry. I love my dogs to death; I don't know what ill do when I hit that day. I know i won't be able to function. Much love and prayers to you and your family and I am sure your pal is making some new ones above.
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Post by Jack Specific on Jul 4, 2021 1:18:11 GMT -5
Oh man. That's super rough, Jay. I am so sorry about all of this. That just sounds horrible and very similar to a situation with my favorite cat I ever have had, Jello, who died last April 24th. He was 16...the day he died, he started throwing up, which wasn't uncommon as he'd overeat sometimes and just upchuck, or get a hairball, etc. He had been retreating under the couch. Some reason, I knew something was wrong. Eventually he made his way to me and got up next to me and let out this yowl. It was horrible... I knew he was having problems. I went in the other room to discuss it with my parents and then heard an even louder yowl. It was time to get into the uber, height of the pandemic, and take him to the vet ASAP. So we went on our way to do that. Got him to a local animal hospital/vet but they only had 20 minutes open til closing time. They took him in while we waited curbside. Came out 10 minutes later and bluntly told us we had to get him to the hospital that was still open or he was "gonna die".... not very pleased with that place to this day if they could have saved him had they been open an extra 30 minutes. But I digress. We somehow end up with the same uber driver, and she's extremely sweet. Tell her to gun it to the hospital... about 3 minutes later he was gone. Watched the life leave his body, slowly and peacefully, and his eyes glossed over. He was the best cat I've ever had, and frankly, one of the best friends I have ever had in my entire life. He would have been 17 this year... I had him for half of my living years when he passed away (I turn 32 tomorrow). Sorry to butt in with my story, but I've held it in for a long time. The uber driver was sweet enough to let me take him out of his cage and hold him until he got stiff. It was one of the hardest experiences of my entire life. I cried for 2 days straight and couldn't sleep in my bed--the bed that he slept in with me. My mom shared a photo she took just days before this happened, with me sleeping on my back and him laying on my chest. It brings me peace to see it now... Once I finally felt better, and gave it a week, I went looking for a new kitty. I adopted a rescue cat named Pinky. She's a tabby, 3/4th of tabbies being male I find this cool. She also lost a chunk of her tail somehow before being rescued, but it healed and she has a cute bobtail. She has come SO far since we brought her in--heard pounding, skittish, and not wanting to leave her cage. My other kitty I adopted from a breeder. Milo. He's attached to me and will follow my lead more or less. I liken him to my cat that passed, Jello, because they're both really clingy and loving males. Milo may be even more clingy than Jello was (he had an independent wise cat side to him) and he's definitely a bit more goofy. imgur.com/gallery/WtyijD3There's a bunch of pix of them. I'm so sorry for you loss, Jay. The suddenness of it is just so similar to what I went through. I hope you can get another kitty cat soon... once the wounds heal up. Cats are amazing therapy animals. I am so sorry. Your bond with your baby is like mine was. I can say I pretty much know how you feel and vice-versa. I am glad you posted this. I think it helps to vent our sadness. I don't know how I feel about getting another cat or any other pet, I am very conflicted. I love cats and all animals but right now I feel like if I were to get another cat I would be trying to replace Kiwi and nothing ever can. No other can be anything like her. And even just looking at other cats I will lose it and break down. On the other hand I get lonely when my wife is at work. The house seems so empty. I do have a bird and chinchillas but they are caged pets for the most part. But it would be nice to have another companion but I want my Kiwi that is all I want. I want her back and I know that cannot happen. My best friend ever same as you with yours.
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Post by ~*Young $ Money*~ on Jul 4, 2021 1:51:56 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss Jay. I know what at an animal lover you are and just how much your pets are more than just a pet so I know this hit you hard.
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Post by Old Zeke on Jul 4, 2021 2:08:44 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss Jay. I completely understand the bond that you had with Kiwi - it's exactly what I had with my previous dog, Purdey. For a long time, all I could keep playing over in my head was the final sounds she made before she passed. I miss her terribly, she was everything to me - even though we have another dog now (a Greyhound) the bond is not as strong. I couldn't bear to part with Purdey, so her ashes remain on my mantelpiece and I still pat the casket every time I walk past it.
I truly believe that unless you've had a pet in your life, you can never understand how much they mean to people who have. Kiwi will always be with you.
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Post by X-27 on Jul 4, 2021 6:35:55 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is brutal. In 2018 I had to put down my cat of 18 years and it was one of the worst days of my life.
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Post by figurecollector on Jul 4, 2021 8:59:44 GMT -5
Sorry to hear about your loss. It is always so sad when you lose an animal that you love and they love you. I have now been through 8 cats and 3 dogs in my lifetime and and it is heartbreaking when the time comes. Our kids are grown and they are going though the same process. My wife and I have decided that it is best that we do not have any more at this point.
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Post by Tim of thee on Jul 4, 2021 9:40:48 GMT -5
I’m sorry to hear this! Much love Jack
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Post by LK3 on Jul 6, 2021 4:01:17 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss Jack. Two of the three cats my parents have had for about 10-15 years have passed, which is never easy, but we were prepared and knew it was coming. To have it happen suddenly like that is very rough.
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Post by layzie on Jul 14, 2021 21:59:55 GMT -5
RIP to kiwi the legend
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