Post by Dex on Oct 10, 2013 20:01:20 GMT -5
Why is it. Why is it that my heart, is found so deep down, hidden beneath cartilage and muscle? That is, if I even had a heart. I wish I did, I wish I was human at times; I wish that I could feel the joy of emotion. Feel the satisfying warmness of the heart that everyone experiences when they find “true love.” I was told that “love” had a long lasting deep effect on a person, like a drug. Something that you can’t quit, something that even if you tried, you couldn't stop the undeniable feelings hidden in your everlasting pounding heart. Pound it went. Oh the joy i’d get out of having “love.” But I, i’m nothing more than a nobody. I’m no more than a figment of anyone's imagination. No one has anyone feelings for me. I don’t even have feelings for myself; I don’t even know what I am. Why i’m surrounded in a pit of darkness, no one to talk to. No one who could ever possibly relate to me. Not even my deepest foes, and my closest allies. That if, I even have an ally. Sometimes I imagine, I like to imagine myself as a young child. A child skipping happily across his warm cozy house. A child that was guaranteed love, by his parents. Being human? Would that possibly be so bad? I don’t know what I am. I’m scared to take off this mask that blinds my face. I’m afraid I’ll see him. I’ll see Satan in my reflection, I can feel it. I can feel him heavily breathing inside my body, almost like he want’s to possess me. Every day I have the internal battle with him, him telling me to do one thing and myself telling me to do another. What is this odd feeling I feel?
This life feels like a mirage, a distant dream hidden in darkness. I told her that very same thing moments ago. Thoughts racing through my mind, will she help me? Or will she not? Her blonde hair and ocean blue eyes left me dazed. I felt almost as if I was attracted to the female. Eric had sent me to see her, he said she’d help me out and lead me out of this darkness I face. She looks like i’m different. She doesn't see me for the undisputed depth defying angel from heaven that I truly am. But as just another customer for her business. I’m angered.
So Dex? Dex is your name if i’m not mistaken? What an interesting name. I will be your psychologist for the day. I’ll help you relieve all the pain and anxiety that you might face in your everyday life. So tell me Mr. Dex, what scares you?
Her eyes were mesmerizing. What was is about this woman? Was it her looks? I sat in despair thinking of an appropriate response to the psychologist. But luckily a thought lit a fire in my head, blooming all across my brain.
What scares me? The thing that truly scares me is the day that i’ll be forgotten. I don’t ever want to be forgotten, not in heaven or in hell. I’ve got senses, almost like superpowers. Given by god himself; I was chosen to be the rightful heir to becoming the head angel in heaven! That though, please let it sink into your brain, let it become one with your fragile little mind; the one filled up with insane stories like mine. Her face. It appeared to be different, she’d given me a different look. Much worse than the one before, she was disgusted. Scared. Afraid.
Dex. I’m afraid you’re deranged. Your thoughts are definitely odd, no one can hear the heavens, no human being can. You think you’re some kind of super being that rises from the ignorance of this world. But the fact of the matter is you’re no different from the rest of us. Dex if you don’t mind if I ask you another question, why is it that you wear that mask? Why don’t you take it off?
Deranged; I've definitely been called that before by the ignorant humans. But from a woman she had some guts. A backbone i’d never seen in a human before, her expression appeared as if she was afraid. But it was all just a myth, an act to fool me. Take off my mask? I believe the only insane being here is her, I have nothing under this mask! Only air, air borrowed from this wondrous earth that I used to supervise from the heavens. Two men stormed down inside cramped room. Big men, two I would possibly find in the WFWF. She gave me a smirk only a devil could possibly do. They’d come closer, each step my torso appeared to sink into my spine. Closer. Then, it all went black. I’d seen nothing, the only thing visible was the color of black. The color of, darkness......
To Be Continued….
(OOC: I enjoyed writing this piece, and this will be apart of a mini-story-line arc I've got going. It'll be going on for about 2 or 3 more RPs. Hope you liked it!)
(OOC: I enjoyed writing this piece, and this will be apart of a mini-story-line arc I've got going. It'll be going on for about 2 or 3 more RPs. Hope you liked it!)
