Post by Midnight-Metal-Master on Feb 11, 2016 15:11:18 GMT -5
Oct.12th 2015 my life changed for the worst. Here's my story so bare with me it may contain a lot of times, dates, bashing, and non local thinking. Its long but in order to tell it I have to start from the beginning!
JULY 27th 2008: Two days after my b-day I was at work, Myself and Another guy named Jerry. I had this job at a videostore for alittle over a week. In walks in a couple. Dudes name was Paul chicks name was Amber. It was a small town most people knew everybody but I had never seen either of them before. Minutes later I found out that Amber was Jerrys cousin. Paul was Ambers "highschool sweetheart" they'd been together I believe at the time about 5yrs. Now later that day those 3 invited me to go with them after work to see The Dark Knight. Id seen it once in already few days before but I was like ok what the heck...I could make some new friends.
So we go to the movies we all rode with Jerry in his explorer had a good time.
July 28th 2008: Amber comes in the videostore, ALONE....She starts talking to me and pretty much flirting with me and just really being herself and talking to me like she knew me forever. She was 17 at the time I had just turned 20 on the 25th. I didn't think much of it at the time until jerry showed up to return some movies he had rented 2days before. He said "amber told me she really likes you" yada yada
Ooook well that's all good but she has a boyfriend and I'm not that kind of guy to mess up someones relationship up because I don't want it done to me! He goes on to say her and Paul don't get along this and that, I'm like ok not my problem
So to sum up the story fews went by she kept coming in talking to me, flirting ect. Till about a week later she came in said " I broke up with paul" and she seemed happy about it so of course I said "well dang you seem happy about it" then she goes on to tell me how she wants to hook up with me...At the time I had been single about 6months so I thought about it for a minute and thought like MOST men do and said ok ill give it a try.
August something 2008, not long after she broke up with paul maybe a week or so. Id see her everyday hanging out this and that....well he showed up one day while she was there hanging out with me and jerry at the video store. He wanted to fight me said she left him because of me I did this and that so I'm like ok dude so we fight. He left p***ed and had friends call me threating me they were gonna kill me this and that whatever...
Jumping this to July 2009. Amber and I have dated for a year, I was still living with my parents at the time she was living with hers 4miles down the road from me. She calls one night tells me she took a test, Shes pregnant the next few days go by she goes to the doctor shes almost 2months along....
FEB 24th 2010. Our son was born. First and only child for us both. He was born on my sisters birthday and who had past away when she was 10, 10 years before.....
So up until NOV 2012 we seen each other daily, Landen(our son) stayed with me during the day and slept most of the time at her house with her and her parents. I still lived with mine and my parents and hers spoiled the crap out of him on a daily basis he was everybodys little bundle of joy and we all loved him to death! I Hate her dad, he hates me. We never got along he always had a problem with something he treats her mom like crap and hes just white trash...Anyway
July 2012
My mom got accepted to a law school in Durham,NC, We were living in TN
Nov 2012
my parents moved 680miles to NC so my mom could go to lawschool. Landen wasn't even 3 yet and Amber at the time just started nursing school in Memphis and was working part time at Kroger and I was working crap hrs at Walmart. So We decided Id move in with her and her parents and we would work till we got on our feet to get our own place.
A year went by so much crap had happened my car got totaled, fight with her dad, her grandma passed away, her sister and her 3 kids moved off ect. Just crap after crap!
March 2013
Paul got killed in a car wreck, Amber was devistated. Later learned from Her and Jerry both that ever since she left him in 2008 he STILL tried his best unknowing to me to confess his feelings for amber to her and jerry. He died still in love with her....I felt horrible after hearing that also.
Nov. 2013
After amber failed a semester in nursing school we decided we would move to Chapel Hill, NC with my parents and start over. There were no good jobs or places or anything for us there in that part of TN and we wanted to be in a city. So me her and landen moved to NC! She had a job at a clinic when she got there, started a week after being there and I got a job doing valet parking at the hospital in Chapel Hill everything was going great!
Jan 2014
Amber had never moved, her and her mom were really close, she was home sick, didn't like her job, complained about the costs and cost of living in NC and had approached me a few times asking if she left with landen if I would go back to TN? I was like NO! Why would we leave this and that my parents lived in a 1 bed room house when we moved up here then they went out of their way got a 3 bed room apartment and we shared rent and we agreed to do so.
Jan 7th
she told me she could do it anymore and she wanted to go home...I was devastated! There was no way I was moving back in with her parents and back to tn cause I left for a reason, why would I go back?!
Jan8th her parents came and picked her and landen up and left. That morning before work I said my good byes and did not see Amber herself for almost a full year after she left that day! Landen I saw twice before I moved back to tn by myself.
After amber left I wasted no time hooking up with this super fine girl at work named Brittany. That alone is a whole story by itself longstory short once amber got wind of it and she freaked, She ended up with some dude named Josh moved in with him in March of 2014. My relationship with Brittany ended in July 27th 2014(weird)
So from about August till Nov. Amber and I talked regularly she called me before she went to work every morning and when she got off. We'd text trough out the day. She was still with Josh living with him, sleeping with him ect. But we still loved each other and it was obvious. Josh was a crazy pos and she wanted out. I wanted my family back and so did she.
Dec 1st 2014.
I moved back to TN! Moved in with my cousin and his gf I stayed there until January 27th 2015. During that time Amber broke up with Josh, Moved back in with her parents and we were seeing each other ALL THE TIME, Spending the night, sleeping together ect. I left my cousin and stayed with her for about 2weeks at her parents house until we finally got our own home together.
Feb 2015
We moved into our own house. It was just me her and our son and I liked it that way. I started a New Job and everything was cool.
last day of June...I was off work. I got drunk she came home we got into a fight I busted my tv and a mirror in the house, she called the cops, i got arressted for "vandalism" and went to jail for 3weeks! While I was in Jail my gma pasted away. I got a furlo slip and was able to attend the funeral. While I was in jail she never answered my calls,came to see me, mailed me and at my gmas funeral she never spoke a word to me and later found out after she left she went on a date to the movies with some dude and I went back to jail to finish my time...when I got out July 22nd she didn't want to let me comeback home but I convinced her to. Found out through FB that my ex gf Brittany had her second Child July 22nd also(weird)
Oct 12th 2015
Amber came home from work about 6:30pm. It was on a Monday, that Saturday 2days before we had plans to go to hang out with some friends but I was sick so I didn't go. She left that sat about 3pm came home at 4am. Slept till 12pm got up took a shower and went back. Anyway she hit the door Monday said she met someone over the weekend and that she wasn't happy anymore. Asked me to leave. AGAIN I WAS DEVISTATED!
She left me for some dude named Terry!
Nov 12th 2015
I went to her parents to spend time with our son cause he always got picked up by her dad after school during the week so when I got off at 4 id go see him or pick him up from there. She shows up after 5 and tells me how terry disappeared. Changed his number, packed his stuff and moved away, deleted his facebook ect. So ofcourse we started talking and seeing each other again. From about the 14th of Nov till Dec 12th!
Dec 12th 2015
She sends me a text on a Saturday saying she just wants to be single work on herself feels like she needs some time to think about things, doesn't know what she wants, all this bullcrap, Again...devastated! I loved her sooooo much and have been though so much at this time shes 25 I'm 27 we've grown together.
Dec.23rd
My parents came down for Christmas they got a hotel room. They picked landen up earlier that day, I came by when I got off at 4 stayed till about 9 and left. While I was there Amber was supposed to bring him some pjs but never showed.
Dec.24th
That morning I drove back to the Hotel which was not even a mile from where our house was... Called amber said Id bring landen home so I did. I went in sat down for a min decided I wanted something to drink so I asked if it was ok to get something she said yes...open the fridge theres beers,wine coolers ect all that crap so I'm like wtf is this?!?! She never drank a drop the whole 7yrs I was with her. Then she goes out to tell me shes single if she wants to see somebody else and drink she can this and that. While our son is with my parents your sitting over here getting tipsy screwing whoever, when she had told me on the 12th something completely different!
Few days later I was supposed to get landen on a Friday night and him stay with me. She didn't answer my calls or texts, Sat morning I rode over knocked on the door she said she had company and I needed to leave. I was like idgaf whos here I just want my son....she called the cops on me.
Jan 2016
Everytime I had to see her or communicate with her it was a problem, our love had turned into hate and I mean I was seriously beginning to hate her just because of everything id been through with her through the years, we had a son together, she'd slept with 3 other men that iv known of since iv known her and she kicked me out of our house, lied to me about a lot of things and everything was just falling apart and it was getting worse EVERY DAY!
So one night after dropping my son off with my truck loaded down I told him I was leaving and that I would see him every chance I could and that I loved him and nothing that had been happening was his fault.
I dropped him off and left TN! My phone rang 15xs from amber until I called Verizon and changed my number....never told her or ANYBODY where I was going but I made it the 600+miles 13hrs....back to NC with my parents, AGAIN!
Now that I'm here I got a new job where my dad works and I really like it been working for about 2weeks now. Met a new girl named Chrissy who goes to the college here in Chapel Hill, I spend the night with her about twice a week. She really likes me and I really like her. We've only been seeing each other for about 3weeks but I still miss Amber
Chrissy is a super sweet WOMAN shes 30 I'm 27 she keeps wanting to have sex but I kinda just make excuses...everyday I think about amber and how much I miss her and my son. I call him from a blocked number and everytime she answers she always asks where I am but I never tell her and I always say I just want to talk to landen. He'll be 6 this month and the conversations are always short but he does talk to me when I call. I made a Text Now acct and set up a number through the app on my phone so she could have that number but never gave her my actual phone number. Second week I was here I texted her and told her a lot of what was on my mind but she just ignores me or tells me off...
So I haven't talked to her or my son since Jan 23rd 2016
Chrissy knows the whole story but she doesn't know that...I still love amber, Idk if its a mental thing or what but everytime she calls or texts or we hang out I just think about amber. But everytime I think about amber I also get extremely angry and think of reason why I really just should hate her but something inside me keeps saying...I really don't. Why should I still feel like this for her since sees put me through so much?! I want it to go away FOREVER!
JULY 27th 2008: Two days after my b-day I was at work, Myself and Another guy named Jerry. I had this job at a videostore for alittle over a week. In walks in a couple. Dudes name was Paul chicks name was Amber. It was a small town most people knew everybody but I had never seen either of them before. Minutes later I found out that Amber was Jerrys cousin. Paul was Ambers "highschool sweetheart" they'd been together I believe at the time about 5yrs. Now later that day those 3 invited me to go with them after work to see The Dark Knight. Id seen it once in already few days before but I was like ok what the heck...I could make some new friends.
So we go to the movies we all rode with Jerry in his explorer had a good time.
July 28th 2008: Amber comes in the videostore, ALONE....She starts talking to me and pretty much flirting with me and just really being herself and talking to me like she knew me forever. She was 17 at the time I had just turned 20 on the 25th. I didn't think much of it at the time until jerry showed up to return some movies he had rented 2days before. He said "amber told me she really likes you" yada yada
Ooook well that's all good but she has a boyfriend and I'm not that kind of guy to mess up someones relationship up because I don't want it done to me! He goes on to say her and Paul don't get along this and that, I'm like ok not my problem
So to sum up the story fews went by she kept coming in talking to me, flirting ect. Till about a week later she came in said " I broke up with paul" and she seemed happy about it so of course I said "well dang you seem happy about it" then she goes on to tell me how she wants to hook up with me...At the time I had been single about 6months so I thought about it for a minute and thought like MOST men do and said ok ill give it a try.
August something 2008, not long after she broke up with paul maybe a week or so. Id see her everyday hanging out this and that....well he showed up one day while she was there hanging out with me and jerry at the video store. He wanted to fight me said she left him because of me I did this and that so I'm like ok dude so we fight. He left p***ed and had friends call me threating me they were gonna kill me this and that whatever...
Jumping this to July 2009. Amber and I have dated for a year, I was still living with my parents at the time she was living with hers 4miles down the road from me. She calls one night tells me she took a test, Shes pregnant the next few days go by she goes to the doctor shes almost 2months along....
FEB 24th 2010. Our son was born. First and only child for us both. He was born on my sisters birthday and who had past away when she was 10, 10 years before.....
So up until NOV 2012 we seen each other daily, Landen(our son) stayed with me during the day and slept most of the time at her house with her and her parents. I still lived with mine and my parents and hers spoiled the crap out of him on a daily basis he was everybodys little bundle of joy and we all loved him to death! I Hate her dad, he hates me. We never got along he always had a problem with something he treats her mom like crap and hes just white trash...Anyway
July 2012
My mom got accepted to a law school in Durham,NC, We were living in TN
Nov 2012
my parents moved 680miles to NC so my mom could go to lawschool. Landen wasn't even 3 yet and Amber at the time just started nursing school in Memphis and was working part time at Kroger and I was working crap hrs at Walmart. So We decided Id move in with her and her parents and we would work till we got on our feet to get our own place.
A year went by so much crap had happened my car got totaled, fight with her dad, her grandma passed away, her sister and her 3 kids moved off ect. Just crap after crap!
March 2013
Paul got killed in a car wreck, Amber was devistated. Later learned from Her and Jerry both that ever since she left him in 2008 he STILL tried his best unknowing to me to confess his feelings for amber to her and jerry. He died still in love with her....I felt horrible after hearing that also.
Nov. 2013
After amber failed a semester in nursing school we decided we would move to Chapel Hill, NC with my parents and start over. There were no good jobs or places or anything for us there in that part of TN and we wanted to be in a city. So me her and landen moved to NC! She had a job at a clinic when she got there, started a week after being there and I got a job doing valet parking at the hospital in Chapel Hill everything was going great!
Jan 2014
Amber had never moved, her and her mom were really close, she was home sick, didn't like her job, complained about the costs and cost of living in NC and had approached me a few times asking if she left with landen if I would go back to TN? I was like NO! Why would we leave this and that my parents lived in a 1 bed room house when we moved up here then they went out of their way got a 3 bed room apartment and we shared rent and we agreed to do so.
Jan 7th
she told me she could do it anymore and she wanted to go home...I was devastated! There was no way I was moving back in with her parents and back to tn cause I left for a reason, why would I go back?!
Jan8th her parents came and picked her and landen up and left. That morning before work I said my good byes and did not see Amber herself for almost a full year after she left that day! Landen I saw twice before I moved back to tn by myself.
After amber left I wasted no time hooking up with this super fine girl at work named Brittany. That alone is a whole story by itself longstory short once amber got wind of it and she freaked, She ended up with some dude named Josh moved in with him in March of 2014. My relationship with Brittany ended in July 27th 2014(weird)
So from about August till Nov. Amber and I talked regularly she called me before she went to work every morning and when she got off. We'd text trough out the day. She was still with Josh living with him, sleeping with him ect. But we still loved each other and it was obvious. Josh was a crazy pos and she wanted out. I wanted my family back and so did she.
Dec 1st 2014.
I moved back to TN! Moved in with my cousin and his gf I stayed there until January 27th 2015. During that time Amber broke up with Josh, Moved back in with her parents and we were seeing each other ALL THE TIME, Spending the night, sleeping together ect. I left my cousin and stayed with her for about 2weeks at her parents house until we finally got our own home together.
Feb 2015
We moved into our own house. It was just me her and our son and I liked it that way. I started a New Job and everything was cool.
last day of June...I was off work. I got drunk she came home we got into a fight I busted my tv and a mirror in the house, she called the cops, i got arressted for "vandalism" and went to jail for 3weeks! While I was in Jail my gma pasted away. I got a furlo slip and was able to attend the funeral. While I was in jail she never answered my calls,came to see me, mailed me and at my gmas funeral she never spoke a word to me and later found out after she left she went on a date to the movies with some dude and I went back to jail to finish my time...when I got out July 22nd she didn't want to let me comeback home but I convinced her to. Found out through FB that my ex gf Brittany had her second Child July 22nd also(weird)
Oct 12th 2015
Amber came home from work about 6:30pm. It was on a Monday, that Saturday 2days before we had plans to go to hang out with some friends but I was sick so I didn't go. She left that sat about 3pm came home at 4am. Slept till 12pm got up took a shower and went back. Anyway she hit the door Monday said she met someone over the weekend and that she wasn't happy anymore. Asked me to leave. AGAIN I WAS DEVISTATED!
She left me for some dude named Terry!
Nov 12th 2015
I went to her parents to spend time with our son cause he always got picked up by her dad after school during the week so when I got off at 4 id go see him or pick him up from there. She shows up after 5 and tells me how terry disappeared. Changed his number, packed his stuff and moved away, deleted his facebook ect. So ofcourse we started talking and seeing each other again. From about the 14th of Nov till Dec 12th!
Dec 12th 2015
She sends me a text on a Saturday saying she just wants to be single work on herself feels like she needs some time to think about things, doesn't know what she wants, all this bullcrap, Again...devastated! I loved her sooooo much and have been though so much at this time shes 25 I'm 27 we've grown together.
Dec.23rd
My parents came down for Christmas they got a hotel room. They picked landen up earlier that day, I came by when I got off at 4 stayed till about 9 and left. While I was there Amber was supposed to bring him some pjs but never showed.
Dec.24th
That morning I drove back to the Hotel which was not even a mile from where our house was... Called amber said Id bring landen home so I did. I went in sat down for a min decided I wanted something to drink so I asked if it was ok to get something she said yes...open the fridge theres beers,wine coolers ect all that crap so I'm like wtf is this?!?! She never drank a drop the whole 7yrs I was with her. Then she goes out to tell me shes single if she wants to see somebody else and drink she can this and that. While our son is with my parents your sitting over here getting tipsy screwing whoever, when she had told me on the 12th something completely different!
Few days later I was supposed to get landen on a Friday night and him stay with me. She didn't answer my calls or texts, Sat morning I rode over knocked on the door she said she had company and I needed to leave. I was like idgaf whos here I just want my son....she called the cops on me.
Jan 2016
Everytime I had to see her or communicate with her it was a problem, our love had turned into hate and I mean I was seriously beginning to hate her just because of everything id been through with her through the years, we had a son together, she'd slept with 3 other men that iv known of since iv known her and she kicked me out of our house, lied to me about a lot of things and everything was just falling apart and it was getting worse EVERY DAY!
So one night after dropping my son off with my truck loaded down I told him I was leaving and that I would see him every chance I could and that I loved him and nothing that had been happening was his fault.
I dropped him off and left TN! My phone rang 15xs from amber until I called Verizon and changed my number....never told her or ANYBODY where I was going but I made it the 600+miles 13hrs....back to NC with my parents, AGAIN!
Now that I'm here I got a new job where my dad works and I really like it been working for about 2weeks now. Met a new girl named Chrissy who goes to the college here in Chapel Hill, I spend the night with her about twice a week. She really likes me and I really like her. We've only been seeing each other for about 3weeks but I still miss Amber
Chrissy is a super sweet WOMAN shes 30 I'm 27 she keeps wanting to have sex but I kinda just make excuses...everyday I think about amber and how much I miss her and my son. I call him from a blocked number and everytime she answers she always asks where I am but I never tell her and I always say I just want to talk to landen. He'll be 6 this month and the conversations are always short but he does talk to me when I call. I made a Text Now acct and set up a number through the app on my phone so she could have that number but never gave her my actual phone number. Second week I was here I texted her and told her a lot of what was on my mind but she just ignores me or tells me off...
So I haven't talked to her or my son since Jan 23rd 2016
Chrissy knows the whole story but she doesn't know that...I still love amber, Idk if its a mental thing or what but everytime she calls or texts or we hang out I just think about amber. But everytime I think about amber I also get extremely angry and think of reason why I really just should hate her but something inside me keeps saying...I really don't. Why should I still feel like this for her since sees put me through so much?! I want it to go away FOREVER!
I dont know good luck 
