Post by tobeornottobe on Nov 21, 2006 10:56:02 GMT -5
The images of beige walls open up the scene. White curtains hang from the windows. Moonlight shines down into the room. A bookshelf stands on the fuzzy white carpet in the corner next to the window. A lamp light from across it standing on the bed stand next to the bed illuminates the room. Even the smallest light can illuminate a big room. Across the bed is an open white door. Not fully open, but slightly. Open enough to hear the water from the bathtub on the other side release from the faucet. On the bed sits Miguel Sanchez. He appears to be writing something down.
IT IS A SIN TO WRITE THIS. "Fading, falling, lost in forever. Will I find a way to keep it together. Am I strong enough to last through the weather? In the hurricane of my life. It's like these lyrics of one of my favorite Disturbed songs is running through my head. My life has worked it's ways down a downward spiral. My first ever match main eventing...And I blow it." I continue to take a negative turning point as I write this down in my journal.
Allison is in the bathroom. She is probably laying in the tub with warm water and bubbles surrounding her. She is probably relaxing right now. It would be a sin if I could relax though. I wish I could, but life has taken a nasty turn on me. I have evolved from "The arrogant and pumpas Object of Envy".
I am now a nothing. Turning to the worst in life and looking for answers. I sit on this bed with my legs tucked under one another. With a black pen in my right hand and a composition notebook in the other. Reverend Shadow wants to preach to me like i am a sinner. I am not a constant sinner.
But the truth is, I have resorted to something I have not been pleased of seeing. I have made my last resort. I have now turned to drugs and alcohol to solve my problems. Reverend Shadow will surely fire me if he found out. I will lose my job. I will lose my house. I will lose Allison. She bathes innocently in the other room, oblivious to my recent antics and struggles.
I have turned to these things to help me re focus on what I need to do. I have failed everything I ever possibly wanted to do. Winning gold, and main eventing. I don't know where else to turn for a pick me up. I need some guidance. I need to change things around. I am not the object of envy anymore. There is nothing to envy me about. I have lunged myself into a period of self destruction. All the things that I thought I had that the people envied me for has now slowly decayed away.
It's like I'm down with the sickness. "I can see inside you the sickness is rising, don't try to deny what you feel. It seems that all that was good has died and is decaying in me". It is exactly how my life is right now. "Looking at my own reflection, when suddenly it changes. Violently it changes!" Everything is accurate right now. The sickness is taking over me. I must make a prayer of forgiveness to the only person who can save me from myself right now. That is you Reverend Shadow.
I look to you as my only form of salvation from this cancer known as "self destruction. I look to you as my last hope. My last chance to keep everything that ever had meaning to me. In this match that we are going to have soon, I beg of you, have mercy on my soul. For it is a sin to write this. Make me worthy of your presence. Make me worthy of following your faith. Make me worthy of life as I know it today. But not as how I have lived it for the most part. Grant me and my love happiness and eternal glory. I beg of you. Save me from myself.
"Take these chains away! Free my hands from bondage!" "Damnation a moment away in all the world's eyes! It is the doom of us!" Take me under your wing and I will call you my Shepard. I seek the truth, I seek the faith. I seek liberation and freedom from these demons that have taken control over my life! Give me an answer to all my prayers. Give me an answer to all my hopes. Reverend, my god, my shepard...My savior. Save me from this self destruction. Don't let my devotion be betrayed and don't let me taste fear on the tip of my tongue.
It is my final hour soon. I need to get cleansed and move on in glory and happiness. But the sickness has taken a toll on me. Lift me up and set me free of these chains that will drown me in the black abyss known as....Self destruction. "
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IT IS A SIN TO WRITE THIS. "Fading, falling, lost in forever. Will I find a way to keep it together. Am I strong enough to last through the weather? In the hurricane of my life. It's like these lyrics of one of my favorite Disturbed songs is running through my head. My life has worked it's ways down a downward spiral. My first ever match main eventing...And I blow it." I continue to take a negative turning point as I write this down in my journal.
Allison is in the bathroom. She is probably laying in the tub with warm water and bubbles surrounding her. She is probably relaxing right now. It would be a sin if I could relax though. I wish I could, but life has taken a nasty turn on me. I have evolved from "The arrogant and pumpas Object of Envy".
I am now a nothing. Turning to the worst in life and looking for answers. I sit on this bed with my legs tucked under one another. With a black pen in my right hand and a composition notebook in the other. Reverend Shadow wants to preach to me like i am a sinner. I am not a constant sinner.
But the truth is, I have resorted to something I have not been pleased of seeing. I have made my last resort. I have now turned to drugs and alcohol to solve my problems. Reverend Shadow will surely fire me if he found out. I will lose my job. I will lose my house. I will lose Allison. She bathes innocently in the other room, oblivious to my recent antics and struggles.
I have turned to these things to help me re focus on what I need to do. I have failed everything I ever possibly wanted to do. Winning gold, and main eventing. I don't know where else to turn for a pick me up. I need some guidance. I need to change things around. I am not the object of envy anymore. There is nothing to envy me about. I have lunged myself into a period of self destruction. All the things that I thought I had that the people envied me for has now slowly decayed away.
It's like I'm down with the sickness. "I can see inside you the sickness is rising, don't try to deny what you feel. It seems that all that was good has died and is decaying in me". It is exactly how my life is right now. "Looking at my own reflection, when suddenly it changes. Violently it changes!" Everything is accurate right now. The sickness is taking over me. I must make a prayer of forgiveness to the only person who can save me from myself right now. That is you Reverend Shadow.
I look to you as my only form of salvation from this cancer known as "self destruction. I look to you as my last hope. My last chance to keep everything that ever had meaning to me. In this match that we are going to have soon, I beg of you, have mercy on my soul. For it is a sin to write this. Make me worthy of your presence. Make me worthy of following your faith. Make me worthy of life as I know it today. But not as how I have lived it for the most part. Grant me and my love happiness and eternal glory. I beg of you. Save me from myself.
"Take these chains away! Free my hands from bondage!" "Damnation a moment away in all the world's eyes! It is the doom of us!" Take me under your wing and I will call you my Shepard. I seek the truth, I seek the faith. I seek liberation and freedom from these demons that have taken control over my life! Give me an answer to all my prayers. Give me an answer to all my hopes. Reverend, my god, my shepard...My savior. Save me from this self destruction. Don't let my devotion be betrayed and don't let me taste fear on the tip of my tongue.
It is my final hour soon. I need to get cleansed and move on in glory and happiness. But the sickness has taken a toll on me. Lift me up and set me free of these chains that will drown me in the black abyss known as....Self destruction. "
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Fin.
I was trying for something new here. Hope you enjoy
. Glad you like it rev! I was trying to pull out with something new here as you can see. Reading this book that we have to read in school called "Anthem" and reading some of your prior RPs really gave me some inspiration for this one. It was short, but I think it still turned out pretty damn good. 
