Post by "The Gothic Superstar" Ronin on Jan 11, 2014 13:54:04 GMT -5
Ive been on this site a long time, and you guys have been a real supportive lot, id like to share this with you.
this has been the worst few days of my life. Thursday morning I lost the love of my life, my soulmate, my girlfriend Brenda.
She was only 41. My heart is just broken, my soul torn in half. She was my biggest fan and supporter as a wrestler, as a collector, and as a person. She was truly everything to me, my life revolved around her. Everyplace I went, everything Ive done, by and large I did with her and for her. You could never meet a more wonderful person, she would do anything for you if she thought it would help someone or make someone happy. She always had a smile on her face and was a constant uplifting source that would brighten anyone' day.
And just this morning, her son headed back to Texas to spend time with family and get things in order there, taking our dog (in my sig) Peanut with him. Now, Peanut was with Brenda and her son almost since she was a tiny puppy, and he had every right to bring her home with him. I know in my heart Brenda would want what was best for her, she was our spoiled princess, but it doesnt diminish the pain, she was her mothers daughter and it felt like losing her all over again.
I still have my cat Koda, and my puppy Gypsy Rose (in the pic above), we got the two of them together, those were really OUR children, but Peanut was my oldest daughter and its just heart wrenching, never in my life have I felt so alone and so lost. She was the smart one, the strong one, she kept my head level and my path straight.
I dont know where I'll go from here, theres a chance Ill be headed back east to be with my family, even with all the friends Ive made in Colorado I just need family and there's really nothing left here for me. As far as my presence as a collector and a customizer, its all going on the shelf for the time being, as I need to start packing and such.
I dont think my heart will ever truly recover from this. Im sure Ill start my work again soon, she knows I enjoyed my custom figs and wouldnt want me to stop, but for the time being Im going to be away from active participation for a while.
I love being a part of this forum, and in time Ill be back
this has been the worst few days of my life. Thursday morning I lost the love of my life, my soulmate, my girlfriend Brenda.
She was only 41. My heart is just broken, my soul torn in half. She was my biggest fan and supporter as a wrestler, as a collector, and as a person. She was truly everything to me, my life revolved around her. Everyplace I went, everything Ive done, by and large I did with her and for her. You could never meet a more wonderful person, she would do anything for you if she thought it would help someone or make someone happy. She always had a smile on her face and was a constant uplifting source that would brighten anyone' day.
And just this morning, her son headed back to Texas to spend time with family and get things in order there, taking our dog (in my sig) Peanut with him. Now, Peanut was with Brenda and her son almost since she was a tiny puppy, and he had every right to bring her home with him. I know in my heart Brenda would want what was best for her, she was our spoiled princess, but it doesnt diminish the pain, she was her mothers daughter and it felt like losing her all over again.
I still have my cat Koda, and my puppy Gypsy Rose (in the pic above), we got the two of them together, those were really OUR children, but Peanut was my oldest daughter and its just heart wrenching, never in my life have I felt so alone and so lost. She was the smart one, the strong one, she kept my head level and my path straight.
I dont know where I'll go from here, theres a chance Ill be headed back east to be with my family, even with all the friends Ive made in Colorado I just need family and there's really nothing left here for me. As far as my presence as a collector and a customizer, its all going on the shelf for the time being, as I need to start packing and such.
I dont think my heart will ever truly recover from this. Im sure Ill start my work again soon, she knows I enjoyed my custom figs and wouldnt want me to stop, but for the time being Im going to be away from active participation for a while.
I love being a part of this forum, and in time Ill be back
. Seems hard to accept but she has gone to a better place. 
