Post by kcmcgrath on Dec 20, 2006 23:04:48 GMT -5
Alright... so I failed. Calvin Lee managed to defeat me last week, bringing me back down to earth just as I was riding high after winning my debut match. I let Reverend Shadow down, I know he was disappointed, I know he wanted me to win that match... but more importantly... I let myself down. I thought I had it... I thought I could take Calvin Lee and start to make a name for myself here, to prove that me beating Percy wasn't just a fluke... but I failed to do so. I'm still just a nobody rookie, still just a name on the card that means nothing... still just looked upon as 'Reverend Shadow's bodyguard' and that's all I will be until I start to prove myself. I thought I'd have the chance to do that at Crimson Existence... until I found out who my opponent was. I've impressed people enough so far that they book me against Kira Wright... a woman! Now, I don't mean that disrespectfully... this is wrestling, anything can happen! If I don't take this match seriously, she'll beat me, I have no doubt about that. She won her debut match so she's definitely not somebody I should overlook, but she's also definitely not somebody that I expected to be facing on pay per view.
Walking along the soft ground, with my head down, I kick a little bit of sand forwards. Not out of frustration, but out of boredom. I wanted to get out of the busy atmosphere of the city of Tokyo, just so I had a place to think. Odaiba beach isn't the nicest of beaches, but it'll do to give me a bit of peace. I've done a lot of thinking, but now my mind's gone blank, that's probably a good thing since all I could think about was my loss last week and that isn't going to help me with anything. I need to put it behind me and look forward, no good ever came from dwelling on the past. Eventually I'd just end up digging myself into a hole and doubting myself and that's something that I can't afford to do.
I raise my head and look forward. The beach isn't too crowded, there are a few families out, children playing and the like but nothing too hectic, it still remains pretty peaceful... pretty boring. I wanted space and peace, and I got it... yet I'm bored of it already.
Japan's been great... I've had fun this week, the nightlife is cool, the culture is different and it's just been a very interesting experience, but these last few days I've not been in the mood for partying, I've not been in the mood for sight-seeing, I've just been focusing on what lies ahead of me. My first WFWF pay per view match.
Japan is a place where everybody dreams of wrestling. Anybody who has a genuine love and passion for this business dreams of performing in front of the Japanese fans. Wrestling isn't a joke here... people respect it. They respect the athletes and what they put themselves through, they respect the technique and the art of wrestling. They take it seriously. Back in America you get laughed at when you tell people you wrestle for a living, maybe even looked down upon. The majority of people just don't realise the risks involved, they don't understand that we put our bodies and our lives on the line for the sake of entertaining people. It's all different here... it doesn't matter if you're a good guy or a bad guy, if you have the best gimmick in the world or the worst... if you put on a good show, you will be respected and remembered.
I walk further down the beach, my feet sinking into the soft sand with every step I take. I'm tired of walking, that's all I've done for the past hour. I spot a few rocks up ahead, and make my way over to them, slipping a little on the sand as I quicken the pace slightly. I sit down on one of the cold, hard rocks and stretch my legs out in front of me. I gaze out over the calm water in the distance, looking past the people standing in front of me. I pull a packet of cigarettes out of my pocket, taking one out and placing it between my lips and lighting it.
: "Smoking is bad for you.
The voice came from someone standing to my right. I turn my head, looking at the figure standing beside me. A small, balding Japanese man... easily in his sixties.
K.C. McGrath: "Tell me something I don't know."
Man: "Smoking kills too many people. Why do you do it?"
K.C. McGrath: "Because I want to."
Man: "Such a waste of health and money."
K.C. McGrath: "Whatever, Doc."
[/b]Walking along the soft ground, with my head down, I kick a little bit of sand forwards. Not out of frustration, but out of boredom. I wanted to get out of the busy atmosphere of the city of Tokyo, just so I had a place to think. Odaiba beach isn't the nicest of beaches, but it'll do to give me a bit of peace. I've done a lot of thinking, but now my mind's gone blank, that's probably a good thing since all I could think about was my loss last week and that isn't going to help me with anything. I need to put it behind me and look forward, no good ever came from dwelling on the past. Eventually I'd just end up digging myself into a hole and doubting myself and that's something that I can't afford to do.
I raise my head and look forward. The beach isn't too crowded, there are a few families out, children playing and the like but nothing too hectic, it still remains pretty peaceful... pretty boring. I wanted space and peace, and I got it... yet I'm bored of it already.
Japan's been great... I've had fun this week, the nightlife is cool, the culture is different and it's just been a very interesting experience, but these last few days I've not been in the mood for partying, I've not been in the mood for sight-seeing, I've just been focusing on what lies ahead of me. My first WFWF pay per view match.
Japan is a place where everybody dreams of wrestling. Anybody who has a genuine love and passion for this business dreams of performing in front of the Japanese fans. Wrestling isn't a joke here... people respect it. They respect the athletes and what they put themselves through, they respect the technique and the art of wrestling. They take it seriously. Back in America you get laughed at when you tell people you wrestle for a living, maybe even looked down upon. The majority of people just don't realise the risks involved, they don't understand that we put our bodies and our lives on the line for the sake of entertaining people. It's all different here... it doesn't matter if you're a good guy or a bad guy, if you have the best gimmick in the world or the worst... if you put on a good show, you will be respected and remembered.
I walk further down the beach, my feet sinking into the soft sand with every step I take. I'm tired of walking, that's all I've done for the past hour. I spot a few rocks up ahead, and make my way over to them, slipping a little on the sand as I quicken the pace slightly. I sit down on one of the cold, hard rocks and stretch my legs out in front of me. I gaze out over the calm water in the distance, looking past the people standing in front of me. I pull a packet of cigarettes out of my pocket, taking one out and placing it between my lips and lighting it.
: "Smoking is bad for you.The voice came from someone standing to my right. I turn my head, looking at the figure standing beside me. A small, balding Japanese man... easily in his sixties.
K.C. McGrath: "Tell me something I don't know."
Man: "Smoking kills too many people. Why do you do it?"
K.C. McGrath: "Because I want to."
Man: "Such a waste of health and money."
K.C. McGrath: "Whatever, Doc."
I take a drag of my cigarette, inhaling deeply before breathing out in the direction of the old man, who waves a hand in front of his face to clear the smoke.
Man: "You American. What bring you here?"
K.C. McGrath: "Work."
Man: "A man of few words I see. What do you do?"
K.C. McGrath: "I'm a wrestler."
Man: "Ah... you come to Japan for experience... for respect."
K.C. McGrath: "Not really. The company I work for is touring Asia... we're holding a show here, that I happen to be a part of."
Man: "Very well. Are you good wrestler?"
K.C. McGrath: "I like to think so..."
Man: "And other people... how do they see you?"
K.C. McGrath: "I don't know... I haven't exactly done much so far to impress."
Man: "So you failure?"
K.C. McGrath: "Not yet... I'm just not off to a great start."
Man: "Then you must change that."
K.C. McGrath: "I'm working on it. It's not the easiest thing in the world... success doesn't happen overnight."
Man: "I give you some advice..."
K.C. McGrath: "Thanks Mr. Myagi, but I don't need it."[/b][/color]
I detract my gaze from the man and look back out towards the water, taking a long drag of my cigarette.
Man: "I give it to you anyway.
K.C. McGrath: "Fine... if you must."
Man: "The hardest things in life are ones that are worth doing most, because they always have biggest payoff. That true for everything you will ever do. The things that take little or no effort, almost always return same, little or no benefits. Keep that in mind... and you will succeed."[/b][/color]
I look back over towards the 'wise' old man and open my mouth to speak, but he just turns his back and walks away, leaving me to think about what he just told me.
He's right... if you want to acheive something, you have to work hard at it. Sitting back and watching the world go by isn't going to get me anywhere, I need to give it everything I've got if I'm going to make something of myself. Defeat doesn't make you weak... it only makes you stronger. It makes you more hungry for success... it makes you want to silence the naysayers and leave a lasting impression in their minds. I need to put the defeat to Calvin Lee behind me, or look at it in a positive light... he's helped me see that I need to push myself, I need to knock it up a gear and go full speed ahead into the pay per view. I need to defeat Kira Wright and prove that I am the real deal and not just a guy on the roster to be overlooked.
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